While this might not be the most glamorous lifestyle we are guilty of this. I am guilty of this. You are guilty. The glove fits our hand and we are not speeding away in the white bronco. O.J did it, by the way god damn it…

 

     I hate that pompous black man; he is the quintessential bastard of the 20th century FUCK O.J. Every time I see his smug face I want to personally kill him. I want him dead and hanging blank expression from a rope. Why it that people with money will uncouthly get acquitted? Can someone please answer that to me? I seriously believe you can buy your way out of hell if the price is right, celebrities are perfect examples of this.

 

     It makes me angry. Like so many other things celebrities make me mad. I become unsettled and I resort to being a prick. Could it be that I am envious of the life they lead, that things are seemingly very very easy? The answer to that is yes, every bad thing I have ever mustered I have had to deal with the consequences of my actions. Where as so many have not. Celebrities get under my skin they are social scabies. I can’t see them but there actions and there carefree lives burn away at me.

 

     But, do I really believe that my problems would be solved with mere millions? Yes. Yes I do, money could buy me happiness. I understand why people make movies and music why people write books. I get that, I think that the underlying denominator is money cold green flat money, by the stacks if you please. I would have a car, no fuck that I would have 2 cars. One car strict to and fro purposes and one just to rub in the faces of others.

 

     I’m no better than rich people. I want to make others jealous. I am guilty of being the very things I loathe in this world. No wonder I can’t stand myself at times. I am a perfect portrait of all the bad and all the good, I am a contradiction. I hate big business yet I endorse them daily. From the cigarettes I smoke, to the Pepsi I drink, to the shirt I purchased from Wal-mart 3 days ago. How can I break this cycle comfortably? I don’t want to be uncomfortable. It’s a vicious circle. And I’m in the middle smoking a Marlboro drinking a pop dancing in between the Windex and dog food.

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